Weight in the Joists — Entry #003

Entry #003 Date July 1, 2023
Weight in the Joists — journal photograph from Entry #003 of The Dead Journal by Thomas Hale

Entry #3
July 4, 2023 — 11:45 AM

Evening work. I was on the first floor with the cooler open and the sash half-raised to let out dust. The front room still smells like old varnish and vinegar from the stripper. I had the oscillating fan pointed at the floor, unplugged for now. Scraping paint is a talkative task and I wanted to hear what the house had to say about it—the rasp against the baseboard, the little dry chime when a blade hits a nail, the fine rain of chips.

About an hour in, I heard weight above me. Not a pop or a settling echo. Two steps, maybe three, slow and even, traveling right to left across the ceiling, then a stop as clean as a closed hand. The boards up there answered like drawn breath through their seams, a soft bowing and release. I put the scraper down and the room kept very still.

I waited for the obvious explanations to appear on their own: a truck outside, fireworks thumping—there have been a few muffled booms from the park already—or a gust against the shingles. Nothing lined up with what I’d heard. It wasn’t a scatter of sounds. It crossed a distance and decided to stop.

I went to the stairs. The line at the landing was where I left it—faint, tucked into the paint along the riser, like someone drew a horizon and forgot the scene. The upstairs air is a degree cooler and has that mineral edge to it from old plaster and the dry radiator fins. The light in the hall is the last of the day, thin and sour through the cracked shade. The floorboards have a shallow give where the runners used to be; you can feel the voids under them when you stand still.

I checked the two rooms above the front room. Dust lay even. No scuffs, no droppings. The windows were shut but a narrow draft knit itself along the baseboards. The ceiling there has a hairline run that traces between joists and stops over the doorway like a rule mark. The attic hatch stayed put. I put a hand up to it anyway. Cool, rough, splinter at the edge. Nothing moved.

Sound behaves strangely here. The hall eats your steps and hands them back a second later in the wrong place. The stairwell carries street noise up and leaves the rooms empty of it. When the house answers, it answers from the corners.

On the newel post, under a peeled chip of paint, I noticed two shallow cuts I hadn’t seen yesterday. An E. Then maybe the start of a B. Or just slips of a knife. I rubbed them with my thumb, and they went smooth again under the paint dust.

There’s a sensible list: the roof warms all day and settles when the shade hits it; rafters expand and shift; a bird can make a man think twice when it walks the ridge. July heat swells wood. Houses talk. That’s the job.

I stood in the front bedroom a little longer than I needed to and it didn’t give me anything else. The quiet there felt set, not empty. I came back down and plugged in the fan but didn’t turn on the radio. I scraped in careful passes, same as before. My hands worked. The room kept its voice to itself. Every now and then I stopped scraping for no reason at all and then started again like I hadn’t.

— Thomas Hale